Another day, another rejection

So now a fourth school has given an outright "no."
Okay, I'm feeling bitter and on edge waiting and hoping for interview invitations and getting these rejection letters instead.

I got a form letter today that starts out "I am writing to share what I believe will be disappointing news."
No, duh.
I suppose it's preferable to "HAHA, you suck!," but as a recipient of such letters I can tell you all I see is the word "no." I'm perfectly well aware it's a form letter, and I certainly don't expect any med school to send out personalized rejections to thousands of hopeful candidates. However, having a short paragraph on how much my effort in compiling the application and how your school can accept "a frustratingly small proportion" of candidates really doesn't soften the blow of what is essentially a big, fat NO on official stationery.

The end of the season is this spring - the very last decisions to be announced in May, and it might take that long before I really have an answer. it's the waiting I cannot stand. I am stuck in between. There is nothing to prepare for, I have only to hope that the next email I get is good news and not another NO stuck in polite diction. I cannot bury myself in a job I do not have or plan for a career that is entirely up in the air.

So here I am, stuck in between.