I went to what seems to be the millionth specialist - a physical therapist who specializes in headaches. For the first time, someone really made sense - put it all together like a puzzle and said this is what's wrong and this is how i intend to fix it. She used a dry needling technique I've never heard of before - she used acupuncture needles to get into the knots in my muscles - the trigger points, or gnomes,as I call them. That's right, for the first time someone really acknowledged the gnomes!. I could really feel the needles doing their work - the muscles sort of seized up around the needle and I could feel the pain travel up to my jaw and my head, and the headache slowly relaxed away. it's not gone entirely, and there's a point on my left shoulder that's still extremely sore, but for the first time in over a year the pain is a good pain - and I'm really hopeful that something will finally work.
And speaking of good pain...
After all that waiting I finally have an answer, and I find this one acceptance letter has really made up for all the NOs I've gotten. It is slowly sinking in what it all means. After all that work, frustration, and the horrible, horrible waiting, that pain is gone. it has been replaced by a whole list of new ones - moving to Ohio, finding an apartment and a roommate, living on my own, all the work, paying for tuition and living expenses and more. Yet all these things are about moving forward and all these worries are troubling, but feel so much better than the stationary constant pain of waiting and hoping.
Here's me on my interview day
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