What's next

I got the packet with my official acceptance letter in the mail on Saturday. I know it's real because most of the packet is about financial aid, filing for FAFSA, having proof that I've had all my vaccinations and don't have any communicable diseases. As it's memorial day weekend, I won't be able to send out my acceptance of the acceptance until Tuesday.

I had thought that once I got an acceptance letter, I wouldn't feel so stressed, but my anxiety level has just shot through the roof. now having to worry about moving to Ohio, not having much of a support system outside of school and being up to my ears in debt are the things I cannot get out of my mind. I assume at least part of that anxiety comes from The Headache and a nasty sinus infection. I feel absolutely miserable right about now. Maybe I've read too many blogs about how med school sucks, but I'm finding it difficult not to panic right now. Underlying it all is the fear that the admissions committee made a mistake and that I don't have what it takes. I'm telling myself that I asked for a challenge and a chance to prove to myself that I could do better, that for once good enough isn't good enough and that I will be doing something that pushes me to really do my best.I applied to medical school knowing I couldn't coast through like I did high school, and that like many of my courses in college, I will probably have to try my hardest just to me average in this environment. I can take this one thing at a time, and have help figuring stuff out, but right now, I'm terrified.